Sarah doesn't know that I fantasize about her every single day. I need her to dominate me, feed me cock, force me to watch her with another man, have me tell the man that I can't please her the way she deserves so he should do this...and I want Sarah to order me to clean her out afterward. I want Sarah and her lover to mock me verbally as I perform tasks for them or are forced to watch them fuck. I need this. I'll need this forever.
Today, Sarah made it official. She never wants to see me again. I'm very sad about this but there's absolutely nothing I can do. I won't be posting here again.
Sarah is done with me but I still love her and I will be eternally grateful for her gifts. One of those gifts was helping me come to terms with my homosexual desires. I don't think that ever would have occurred without her. I only wish I could express them in her presence.
I want to be totally open with Sarah about my bisexuality. I'm hopeful that she will want to hear what I have to say....and be curious about this and enjoy me talking with her.
I was able to share my bisexual experiences with Sarah today. I haven't heard her reaction. But it was liberating, though I worry that it might turn her off forever.
I've come to the conclusion that while Sarah says she "loves" me, I really don't think she "likes" me. I spilled my guts out to her. She asked me to do this. I shared things I've never shared with anyone. But I did not get any really positive feelings in response. There were words about self-acceptance and advice. But while I was feeling so much emotion, she was just so goddamned clinical. I still don't know what she really felt, if anything, or even thought, for that matter. I suspect that I'll never hear from her again. Over and out. Zack
Now, more than ever, I'm convinced she despises me. Nothing was ever good enough for her, anyway. It's the story of my life. I NEED to stop investing so much emotional energy in women. It only leads to heartache and disappointment. ALWAYS. Zack
It was a monumental mistake to share so much about myself with Sarah recently. Colossal error. I thought it would lead to a different outcome...and I would feel more accepted. Instead, I simply feel rejected. I should have said nothing and not taken her at face value when she said that if there was anything I wanted to discuss, I could discuss it with her. Never again!
I wish Sarah would return to my life and fuck me. She totally misread everything I shared with her...thinking I didn't want her when I did. I still think about her every day.
I know that Sarah will never read this blog again. So I'm just going to write what I feel. I need her to possess me again like she used to when we were together. I need her to cuckold me again. She has no idea how much I desire her. She never did.
Now, here you go again You say, you want your freedom Well, who am I to keep you down It's only right that you should Play the way you feel it But listen carefully, to the sound Of your loneliness Like a heartbeat, drives you mad In the stillness of remembering what you had And what you lost And what you had And what you lost Oh, thunder, only happens when it's raining Players, only love you when they're playing They say women, they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean, you'll know You'll know Now, here I go again, I see The crystal vision I keep my visions to myself It's only me, who wants to Wrap around your dreams and Have you any dreams you'd like to sell Dreams of loneliness Like a heartbeat, drives you mad In the stillness of remembering, what you had And what you lost And what you had Ooh, what you lost Thunder, only happens when it's raining Players, only love you when they're playing Women, they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean, you'll know Oh, thunder, only happens when it's raining Players, only love you when they're playing They say women, they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean, you'll know You'll know You will know Oh, you'll know
Now, I know that I will never see or hear from her again. The reality is she just doesn't like me. I will have to learn to accept this. Maybe by this time next year, I'll be in a better space. I'm not.
I miss Sarah so much.
ReplyDeleteSarah has dropped me and I miss her every single day.
ReplyDeleteZack 03/01/18
I will never stop wanting Sarah, ever. I need Sarah.
ReplyDeleteZack
Sarah doesn't know that I fantasize about her every single day. I need her to dominate me, feed me cock, force me to watch her with another man, have me tell the man that I can't please her the way she deserves so he should do this...and I want Sarah to order me to clean her out afterward. I want Sarah and her lover to mock me verbally as I perform tasks for them or are forced to watch them fuck. I need this. I'll need this forever.
ReplyDeleteToday, Sarah made it official. She never wants to see me again. I'm very sad about this but there's absolutely nothing I can do. I won't be posting here again.
ReplyDeleteSarah is done with me but I still love her and I will be eternally grateful for her gifts. One of those gifts was helping me come to terms with my homosexual desires. I don't think that ever would have occurred without her. I only wish I could express them in her presence.
ReplyDeleteI'll always love Sarah. But in recent years, she interpreted my sexual attraction and hunger for her as a negative thing. It wasn't. I still want her.
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy! Sarah has emailed me. I'm desperate to see her again.
ReplyDeleteslave Zack
I want to be totally open with Sarah about my bisexuality. I'm hopeful that she will want to hear what I have to say....and be curious about this and enjoy me talking with her.
ReplyDeleteI was able to share my bisexual experiences with Sarah today. I haven't heard her reaction. But it was liberating, though I worry that it might turn her off forever.
ReplyDeleteI've come to the conclusion that while Sarah says she "loves" me, I really don't think she "likes" me. I spilled my guts out to her. She asked me to do this. I shared things I've never shared with anyone. But I did not get any really positive feelings in response. There were words about self-acceptance and advice. But while I was feeling so much emotion, she was just so goddamned clinical. I still don't know what she really felt, if anything, or even thought, for that matter. I suspect that I'll never hear from her again. Over and out.
ReplyDeleteZack
Now, more than ever, I'm convinced she despises me. Nothing was ever good enough for her, anyway. It's the story of my life. I NEED to stop investing so much emotional energy in women. It only leads to heartache and disappointment. ALWAYS.
ReplyDeleteZack
It's painful but in the end, it's always best to have clarity. Sarah's silence is clarity for me. Now, I'm just going to immerse myself in work.
ReplyDeleteIt was a monumental mistake to share so much about myself with Sarah recently. Colossal error. I thought it would lead to a different outcome...and I would feel more accepted. Instead, I simply feel rejected. I should have said nothing and not taken her at face value when she said that if there was anything I wanted to discuss, I could discuss it with her. Never again!
ReplyDeleteThe fact is that Sarah just doesn't like me. And I miss having her in my life. I hope this pain can go away one day.
ReplyDeleteThe pain lingers. I'll always love her even though she dislikes me.
ReplyDeleteI miss Sarah but she's gone gone gone.
ReplyDeleteStill miss Sarah so badly.
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ReplyDeleteSarah won't be speaking to me again. I'll always think of her but I don't think I'll be back on this site again.
ReplyDeleteI wish Sarah didn't see things the way she does. But the reality is she lost interest in me sexually around 2016 but I never lost interest in her.
ReplyDeleteI wish Sarah would return to my life and fuck me. She totally misread everything I shared with her...thinking I didn't want her when I did. I still think about her every day.
ReplyDeleteI'm aching for her, day in and day out.
ReplyDeleteI know that Sarah will never read this blog again. So I'm just going to write what I feel. I need her to possess me again like she used to when we were together. I need her to cuckold me again. She has no idea how much I desire her. She never did.
ReplyDeleteNow, here you go again
ReplyDeleteYou say, you want your freedom
Well, who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully, to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
And what you had
And what you lost
Oh, thunder, only happens when it's raining
Players, only love you when they're playing
They say women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know
Now, here I go again, I see
The crystal vision
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me, who wants to
Wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell
Dreams of loneliness
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering, what you had
And what you lost
And what you had
Ooh, what you lost
Thunder, only happens when it's raining
Players, only love you when they're playing
Women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
Oh, thunder, only happens when it's raining
Players, only love you when they're playing
They say women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know
You will know
Oh, you'll know
I never thought Sarah would abandon me and drop me. Never in a million years. I miss her so much. Always.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could be with Sarah. I miss her so much.
ReplyDeleteI love and miss Sarah. Every single day, I crave fusion with her.
ReplyDeleteNow, I know that I will never see or hear from her again. The reality is she just doesn't like me. I will have to learn to accept this. Maybe by this time next year, I'll be in a better space. I'm not.
ReplyDeleteI wish Sarah would dominate me just once. just one more time.
ReplyDeleteI would beg for her forever.
ReplyDeleteSarah...I still miss you every day.
ReplyDeletestill missing Sarah after not seeing her for two years.
ReplyDeleteThree years later, I think I'm finally starting to see daylight after so much longing and so much missing of Sarah. I hope she's happy.
ReplyDeletestill think about Sarah every day.
ReplyDeleteNothing approaches the connection I felt with Sarah. I miss her dearly.
ReplyDeleteZack
I can't stop thinking about Sarah.
ReplyDeleteSarah is hot hot hot...and I miss her dearly.
ReplyDeleteFantastic news. Sarah just might want to see me again. OMG.
ReplyDeleteI had a false start with Sarah. I thought she wanted to meet me for lunch but now, she's too busy, I doubt it will ever happen. Such is life.
ReplyDeleteI wish Sarah would ask to meet for lunch. I would be there in an instant.
ReplyDeleteI am going insane with desire for Sarah. Still. Nearly 10 years after she fucked a guy in front of me. Zack.
ReplyDeleteI was hoping that this would be the year that I would re-connect with Sarah but now I'm concluding that this probably won't occur...so sad. Zack
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