zack and I exchanged emails this morning. He wants to get together Thursday or Friday so we'll see.
At least he doesn't seem to angry with me anymore. That's improvement, right?
Tuesday 19 March 2013
Sunday 17 March 2013
Update?...
Not much to tell. I have not spoken with zack since that incident on Tues. I have emailed him and shared with him how I was feeling, and apologizing for not being "more sensitive" to the situation. I let him know that I was not angry or upset with him. His only communication has been an email saying he didn't want to talk about it - that he hoped I would understand how distressed he was at the time, and, that he was not doing very well now.
As a result, I don't know how he is coping, I do not know how his wife is (I suppose it really is none of my business, however). I do know that along with managing his wife's situation (I am assuming she is still in hospital) the next 2 weeks are probably his busiest of the year and that he is also swamped with work.
So, I am backing off. If he wants me he will have to let me know. I am not chasing after him, it isn't my style, but I hope he continues to understand that I will always be here - if he wants me. If he doesn't want my support - now or ever- there isn't a thing I can do about it.
But I do know zack. I also know that the extend of his wife's injuries and subsequent surgery will result in her being immobile for some time. There is absolutely no way zack will spend time with me knowing his wife is at home, alone and incapacitated. His conscience would never allow him to do that.
He will, however, get what he has desired for sometime, albeit a weird variation. he will have his 24/7 submissive relationship. I, however, won't be any part of that. That leaves me quite heartbroken.
No matter what, he will always be the greatest love of my life.
As a result, I don't know how he is coping, I do not know how his wife is (I suppose it really is none of my business, however). I do know that along with managing his wife's situation (I am assuming she is still in hospital) the next 2 weeks are probably his busiest of the year and that he is also swamped with work.
So, I am backing off. If he wants me he will have to let me know. I am not chasing after him, it isn't my style, but I hope he continues to understand that I will always be here - if he wants me. If he doesn't want my support - now or ever- there isn't a thing I can do about it.
But I do know zack. I also know that the extend of his wife's injuries and subsequent surgery will result in her being immobile for some time. There is absolutely no way zack will spend time with me knowing his wife is at home, alone and incapacitated. His conscience would never allow him to do that.
He will, however, get what he has desired for sometime, albeit a weird variation. he will have his 24/7 submissive relationship. I, however, won't be any part of that. That leaves me quite heartbroken.
No matter what, he will always be the greatest love of my life.
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