Sarah,
I felt terrible about yesterday morning and you know that. There's a part of me that wasn't thrilled with you setting up that profile without talking with me first. I can't control you, nor do I wish to control you. I understand the pain of your life, so it doesn't surprise me intellectually that you would seek more stimulation elsewhere.
And it's true that I'm a total and complete slut. And I was interested in hearing about your correspondence. It does turn me on thinking about you force-feeding me a hard cock, especially if I don't even see the man, and I hear your voice in my ear calling me your whore.
It's just been a tough week and one I never want to repeat.
Zack
Saturday 17 September 2011
Friday 16 September 2011
Eleven Elements of an M/s Relationship
If this weren't so huge, I'd get a tattoo. I felt a need to re-post these... Enjoy!
First element is HONESTY
Complete and total honesty between the slave and Mistress. Without such honesty, the relationship can not exist in it's fullness; from honesty all things grow.
Second element is TRUST
Trust grows from honesty. Only through the knowledge that the Mistress is, and always will be, completely honest can the slave also give complete trust, and only through the knowledge that the slave is completely honest with Her, can the Mistress trust the slave.
Third Element is RESPECT
Respect for each other grows from the knowledge of complete honesty and the giving of complete trust.
Fourth Element is SUBMISSION
The slave must willfully and completely submit to the Mistress. This he can do because of the trust he has in Her.
Fifth element is POSSESSION
The Mistress fully possesses the slave - his thoughts, mind, body and soul. The slave gives himself completely to the Mistress and the Mistress assumes ownership of the slave. Everything that was his is now Hers to do with as She sees fit.
Sixth element is OBEDIENCE
The slave must always obey the Mistress's every command. He obeys not only because he is owned and possessed but because he desires to please his Mistress in every way he can.
Seventh element is CARING & DEVOTION
The Mistress cares for the slave and will always be devoted to his welfare. The slave must care for the Mistress and be devoted to Her well-being as well. The slave serves, not only out of duty, but also out of his devotion to his Mistress. He must learn Her every desire; Her every whim is to be his life. His destiny is to serve with all of his soul because of this devotion.
Eighth element is PROTECTION
The Mistress assumes the responsibility of complete and utter protection of the slave. He is Her property and as such is to be protected at all times from all harmful influences, be it from another person or society at large.
Ninth element is HONOR
To be a true Mistress, She must have honor in every action She takes, in every thought She thinks. The slave must honor his Mistress and do everything in his power to protect that honor through his own actions, words and thoughts.
Tenth element is FRIENDSHIP
The most lasting relationships are based on friendship while the Mistress Dominates and the slave serves. They must become friends or the relationship is doomed.
Eleventh element is LOVE
If, and only if, all the previous elements have been met, then love can bloom between the Mistress and the slave. This is the greatest of the elements, the most difficult to attain but at the same time the most fragile and strongest. It binds the Mistress to the slave and the slave to the Mistress with an unbreakable bond - the bond of LOVE.
First element is HONESTY
Complete and total honesty between the slave and Mistress. Without such honesty, the relationship can not exist in it's fullness; from honesty all things grow.
Second element is TRUST
Trust grows from honesty. Only through the knowledge that the Mistress is, and always will be, completely honest can the slave also give complete trust, and only through the knowledge that the slave is completely honest with Her, can the Mistress trust the slave.
Third Element is RESPECT
Respect for each other grows from the knowledge of complete honesty and the giving of complete trust.
Fourth Element is SUBMISSION
The slave must willfully and completely submit to the Mistress. This he can do because of the trust he has in Her.
Fifth element is POSSESSION
The Mistress fully possesses the slave - his thoughts, mind, body and soul. The slave gives himself completely to the Mistress and the Mistress assumes ownership of the slave. Everything that was his is now Hers to do with as She sees fit.
Sixth element is OBEDIENCE
The slave must always obey the Mistress's every command. He obeys not only because he is owned and possessed but because he desires to please his Mistress in every way he can.
Seventh element is CARING & DEVOTION
The Mistress cares for the slave and will always be devoted to his welfare. The slave must care for the Mistress and be devoted to Her well-being as well. The slave serves, not only out of duty, but also out of his devotion to his Mistress. He must learn Her every desire; Her every whim is to be his life. His destiny is to serve with all of his soul because of this devotion.
Eighth element is PROTECTION
The Mistress assumes the responsibility of complete and utter protection of the slave. He is Her property and as such is to be protected at all times from all harmful influences, be it from another person or society at large.
Ninth element is HONOR
To be a true Mistress, She must have honor in every action She takes, in every thought She thinks. The slave must honor his Mistress and do everything in his power to protect that honor through his own actions, words and thoughts.
Tenth element is FRIENDSHIP
The most lasting relationships are based on friendship while the Mistress Dominates and the slave serves. They must become friends or the relationship is doomed.
Eleventh element is LOVE
If, and only if, all the previous elements have been met, then love can bloom between the Mistress and the slave. This is the greatest of the elements, the most difficult to attain but at the same time the most fragile and strongest. It binds the Mistress to the slave and the slave to the Mistress with an unbreakable bond - the bond of LOVE.
And the Beat Goes On...
Being of a personality that needs to keep Her mind busy, I did something last weekend, after My encounter in the woods with Zack. I heard about a dating website on the radio on the way home. It peaked My curiosity, so I visited the site when I got home. It was a site for married people looking for "more". Well, being the flirt, the tease that I am, I could not resist, I set up a profile. I made it clear that I was dominant - complete with leather boots, crop and fishnet stockings.
I was rather astonished by the response! Within 24 hr. I had close to 50 messages - asking for more info, sharing of pictures and asking to see Mine. It kind of blew Me away, to be frank. Over 500 men viewed My profile in the next few days, and it did not take long before I had over a 100 requests for more of everything. (There is one irony - one guy, whose site nickname was "Onmyknees" and who was clearly into slavedom and likely the most submissive of the lot, did not reply back - THAT was curious!) Anyway, I shared this info with Zack.
Zack, being the total slut that he is, was all over this like white on rice!! It excites him to think of me dominating someone else, it excites him to think of being in the room while I dominate another man. I think he simply gets off on Me ordering anyone around! lol. Who knows, maybe I will find U/us a plaything on this site. He is encouraging me to be "a professional" - THAT excites him a lot. Who knows what the future holds?? Zack will always be first and foremost in my heart, but sometimes I do wonder if it is enough for Me being only a part time Mistress.
I know I spend way too much time alone - which has a way of getting Me into trouble. What is compounding the problem today is that I had thought I was going to be seeing Zack this morning, but it hasn't worked out that way. My mind understands all the reasons, and although Zack says don't be disappointed, how can I not be? There will be no opportunity to spend any kind of quality time with him for the next couple of weeks, so right now I am not doing so great. I know Zack will be upset when he reads this, because he does not want to be the cause of my disappointment.
I'm sorry Zack, as much as I want to protect you from hurt, I have also promised to be honest. And right now, I'm very disappointed. I'll get over it, and it isn't your fault, it just is what it is.
Wednesday 14 September 2011
Every Woman Should have a Slut-Slave - just not Mine!
I wonder if other M/s couples are as compatible as Zack and I are. We totally "fit"- physically, sexually, emotionally and I think intellectually (although Zack is very intelligent, so I'm not sure I keep up all the time). W/we fit even before W/we made this discovery; this development in O/our relationship has simply maximized what we had.
If anyone read My first blog post, they might remember that Zack's preference for "light BDSM" scared Me. I was naïve, I was biased and completely ignorant to what this meant - I was more vanilla than vanilla. It is still a little surreal to be where I am at right now.
Knowing who I am, and having a partner who compliments my every wish, My every need, My every desire is something I could never have anticipated. Hell, I didn't even know it was possible to feel this way.
An M/s (or D/s, whichever you want) relationship is so far from what people (vanilla) think it is. It isn't weird, it isn't perverted, it isn't twisted, it definitely isn't sick. Those are the things it isn't.
When the right people come together in an M/s relationship- it is beautiful. This relationship not only requires honesty, openness and trust, it fosters these things. The relationship simply can not work without it. It is essential that one partner knows the other. They must communicate their deepest fears, needs, desires. Without these, it can not survive.
I have realized the deep irony of this. This is nothing special. These requirements are necessary for ANY relationship to be successful - BDSM, vanilla, work, play. These characteristics are essential for our success in all aspects of life.
But what is unique about BDSM is that if any part of the trust, honesty, openness is missing, the relationship will quickly disintegrate. The effect of any dishonesty or lack of openness or trust would be immediately evident. In any vanilla relationship this can easily be hidden or concealed, allowing the relationship to continue albeit not in as happily or satisfactorily manner.
With Zack I feel completely free. I trust him, I accept him for everything he is - he has no faults, because it all comes together into the completeness that is my soul mate. I never want him to change a single thing. He needs my control, he needs me to free him of the day to day stress he bears making decisions that many rely on, free him of the responsibilities of his life. As much as he wants to please me, to give me what I need, is as much as I want the same for him. He knows that I need to be able to take control as much as he needs to relinquish it.
I am ready - I am ready to take control of Zack - to use him for my pleasure, to wipe his mind free of everything except Me and My needs, to teach him the pleasure of pain, to take him to the wonder of subspace, to free him of his burdens. He needs that as much as I need to do that.
I can honestly say W/we are perfect for each other.
Sent from my BlackBerry
If anyone read My first blog post, they might remember that Zack's preference for "light BDSM" scared Me. I was naïve, I was biased and completely ignorant to what this meant - I was more vanilla than vanilla. It is still a little surreal to be where I am at right now.
Knowing who I am, and having a partner who compliments my every wish, My every need, My every desire is something I could never have anticipated. Hell, I didn't even know it was possible to feel this way.
An M/s (or D/s, whichever you want) relationship is so far from what people (vanilla) think it is. It isn't weird, it isn't perverted, it isn't twisted, it definitely isn't sick. Those are the things it isn't.
When the right people come together in an M/s relationship- it is beautiful. This relationship not only requires honesty, openness and trust, it fosters these things. The relationship simply can not work without it. It is essential that one partner knows the other. They must communicate their deepest fears, needs, desires. Without these, it can not survive.
I have realized the deep irony of this. This is nothing special. These requirements are necessary for ANY relationship to be successful - BDSM, vanilla, work, play. These characteristics are essential for our success in all aspects of life.
But what is unique about BDSM is that if any part of the trust, honesty, openness is missing, the relationship will quickly disintegrate. The effect of any dishonesty or lack of openness or trust would be immediately evident. In any vanilla relationship this can easily be hidden or concealed, allowing the relationship to continue albeit not in as happily or satisfactorily manner.
With Zack I feel completely free. I trust him, I accept him for everything he is - he has no faults, because it all comes together into the completeness that is my soul mate. I never want him to change a single thing. He needs my control, he needs me to free him of the day to day stress he bears making decisions that many rely on, free him of the responsibilities of his life. As much as he wants to please me, to give me what I need, is as much as I want the same for him. He knows that I need to be able to take control as much as he needs to relinquish it.
I am ready - I am ready to take control of Zack - to use him for my pleasure, to wipe his mind free of everything except Me and My needs, to teach him the pleasure of pain, to take him to the wonder of subspace, to free him of his burdens. He needs that as much as I need to do that.
I can honestly say W/we are perfect for each other.
Sent from my BlackBerry
I am Sarah's slut
If you read the post below, you'll know that Zack is a slut for Sarah. It gives me great pleasure to know she loves my cock. I love looking at her when her mouth is full of my cock. I loved how she brazenly took my cock in her mouth in the woods on the weekend. Just thinking about that makes me squirm with desire.
I still don't think Sarah fully realizes how much I want to please her without limits. I loved how she took me in the fuckmobile. She ordered me into the back seat, sternly told me to sit in the right position, and when I pulled off my shorts, my hard cock made what looked like a tent in my underwear.
I love watching her peel off her panties because I know that she's going to fuck me. She fucks me so well. My cock was aching for her, and this time, it was swollen in a way that made it a little more awkward to enter her. But it was well worth it.
I like holding off on an orgasm and let her just use me and take me like her pleasure post. I want Sarah to use me for sex. I'm ready to fuck her again. I need Sarah.
Zack
I still don't think Sarah fully realizes how much I want to please her without limits. I loved how she took me in the fuckmobile. She ordered me into the back seat, sternly told me to sit in the right position, and when I pulled off my shorts, my hard cock made what looked like a tent in my underwear.
I love watching her peel off her panties because I know that she's going to fuck me. She fucks me so well. My cock was aching for her, and this time, it was swollen in a way that made it a little more awkward to enter her. But it was well worth it.
I like holding off on an orgasm and let her just use me and take me like her pleasure post. I want Sarah to use me for sex. I'm ready to fuck her again. I need Sarah.
Zack
Tuesday 13 September 2011
Sunday, Sunday, So Good To Me...
Zack and I met last Sunday for O/our "walk in the woods". W/we were meeting at the park, and I arrived first. I saw him drive up and as usual, My heart skipped about a million beats, the heat began to spread through My loins and I immediately wanted to fuck him. Which is pretty funny, because today, Zack said "you always turn me on - any theories why I get so aroused thinking about you being sexual?" I get the same feelings, but they are 10 times greater when I see him. It seems crazy sometimes - we have been together for 2 years and the excitement has not only NOT diminished, it has escalated to greater levels for Me. I always try to act so cool, casual and nonchalant when he arrives (I wonder if he notices?), but inside I am all "a-quiver". On this day he wore shorts, as I had instructed. He has fabulously sexy legs and I wanted to see them. Actually, I wanted to feel them, I wanted to be naked between them! But I contained myself, I kept under control. This day was about de-stressing Zack. But then, he finished me off. He was wearing a great pair of sunglasses. I had never seen him in sunglasses before. His hair is a little longer than usual (I love his hair and I hope he keeps it longer - all the better for tugging on) and he looked quite dashing; actually, he looked incredibly sexy. He laughed and said well, he WAS a minor celebrity. That made Me laugh. He makes My life so happy.
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