Saturday 13 October 2012
I Do Believe Zack is Back...
We have had several email conversations this week. Zack has been witness to my more powerful, more Dominant side and has responded well. he is hungry for more more. I do believe, zack is again under my control. I can not wait for Thursday to arrive. Check back on Friday.. because I am going to make sure zack posts here after our session.
Tuesday 9 October 2012
A new Day....
I come here tonight somewhat hesitantly. I do not want to lead you on, nor do I want to lead myself on. That said, I would like to share with you my guarded optimism about Zack and Sarah. We began communicating again this past weekend. It almost seemed like old times. As a result, we have made arrangements to spend an afternoon together next week.
I have learned a lot about us in our relationship and about myself. What I have learned is that my emotion and deep love for Zack is detrimental to our well being What Zack needs from me is dominance. Where I went wrong was letting him make decisions. Any decisions. Oh, and letting him beleive that his decisions mattered and affected me. I think in his eyes, as my slave, that made me weak to him. And that weakness pushed him away from me.
The game is changing - I feel stronger and in better control. I have let him know that I have changed, that I am no longer his girlfriend and i will no longer put up with his nonsense. I am his Mistress. And as his Mistress, I expected him to behave appropriately or be punished. I believe he is ready for me to take control again - more ready now than ever. His work and his home life continues to create a ton of pressure. He needs to have that managed through subservience to me.
Today I sent him instructions about his behavior, how I expect him to be when he is with me. I think it will excite him. I know he has missed this as much as I have and I look forward to sharing the details of our first session in over 6 months. It feels like the anticipation of a being a virgin looking forward to the wedding night.
Please wish us luck.
I have learned a lot about us in our relationship and about myself. What I have learned is that my emotion and deep love for Zack is detrimental to our well being What Zack needs from me is dominance. Where I went wrong was letting him make decisions. Any decisions. Oh, and letting him beleive that his decisions mattered and affected me. I think in his eyes, as my slave, that made me weak to him. And that weakness pushed him away from me.
The game is changing - I feel stronger and in better control. I have let him know that I have changed, that I am no longer his girlfriend and i will no longer put up with his nonsense. I am his Mistress. And as his Mistress, I expected him to behave appropriately or be punished. I believe he is ready for me to take control again - more ready now than ever. His work and his home life continues to create a ton of pressure. He needs to have that managed through subservience to me.
Today I sent him instructions about his behavior, how I expect him to be when he is with me. I think it will excite him. I know he has missed this as much as I have and I look forward to sharing the details of our first session in over 6 months. It feels like the anticipation of a being a virgin looking forward to the wedding night.
Please wish us luck.
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