More Inner Workings of Zack...

"When I was much younger, I was living in another city for about nine months. I couldn't understand why I had submissive fantasies. I went to a porn store and bought a magazine with women in leather, holding whips, and basically looking like Dominant Bitches. I was 23. It was my first exposure to this type of sexuality. I was very naive. But I knew that I liked it.

I lived in a house with five other guys. I would sit in my room and stare at the photos in this magazine and masturbate. It was like going into subspace. This was my first exposure to this form of sexuality."

"Here's a fantasy I've had that I've never told anyone...and I've never acted on it.

I've wondered what it would be like to have a pretty Asian cross dresser, very feminine, made up as a full woman and looking like a woman, sucking my cock.

If you, as my Mistress, were to force a man to suck my cock, I might prefer if this man is Chinese or Japanese because those guys are always more feminine"

Oh, Zack - you have no idea what pleasures lie in store for you..

Mistress Sarah

Zack and his Fantasies...

"I' want to be your whore badly.
I think you really understand me and understand what I need.
I'm going to share something with you....I know I'm mostly hetero, but I also believe that sexual orientation is a continuum.
Since we've become more open to the M/s lifestyle, I have wondered, at times, what it might be like if you forced me to watch you with another guy and you told the guy that I was your slut. I got a jolt when you mentioned forcing me to take a thick black cock in my mouth. I don't want to be manipulative; I just want to be honest.
If you want a guy to suck my cock, I find it more appealing if he would be Asian. But if you want to force me to be your cocksucking slut, I think I would go deeper into subspace if it was with a black guy that you found attractive. Or a white guy you found attractive.
These are just fantasies. But I have a feeling that if you guided and Dominated me through this process, I would enjoy it very much"

Checking In...

Zack has been slow with the fantasies. He has sent me a few, but they aren't exactly what I am looking for, not yet anyway. I think it is difficult for him to reveal himself like this, even to Me. But he'll get there, every day he is getting there.
He had a difficult weekend, and although he didn't share every disaster with me, it was enough to upset me, to make my heart ache for him - nothing too serious - the usual kind of stuff that makes us all crazy - tons of laundry, a funeral of a very dear friend, backed up plumbing etc etc. You know how it is. What makes me so crazy is that I know there is a far better life, a far happier life, out there.. just waiting for us. I want so much to pick him up one day and say "let's just go, let's just put the car in drive and go" Fuck the obligations. Fuck all the complications that are sucking us both dry.
Here is my fantasy - nothing you can get off on, but my fantasy all the same. In my fantasy, it is just zack and |I, living in San Diego. We have a great apartment overlooking the ocean. I will work and he will be my houseboy - kept naked a good part of the time. He would do nothing without my approval, without my instruction. He would learn to do things (housework, laundry, cooking) the way I want it done or simply suffer the consequences. He could work if he could find work he can do from home. I would expect him to keep his mind current and informed - there is no room for dimwits in my life. We would do grocery shopping together - him being led on collar and leash. He would become well known in the neighborhood as my slave, my pet, my houseboy.
Her would be expected to be waiting at the door when I got home.. on his knees, naked and absolutely ready for whatever I decided to dish out at the time - I might bring a colleague home from work for him to serve, I may decide to let all of the frustrations of the day out on him via my crop or my flogger. Whatever it was, he would take it willingly, and I know, very very happily. Our lives would be simple, uncomplicated and wholly satisfying to us both.
Maybe I should just go ahead and get a job in San Diego, start the process of work visas, apartment etc and when it was all in place - kidnap him.
Yes, I should do just that.