Mistress Sarah understands me.
I feel like she is becoming more Dominant and more willing to act in a truly Dominant way, even ramping up humiliation.

I need Mistress Sarah's control. She has been talking recently about her attraction for black males. She has talked about finding a submissive black male and forcing me to watch her with him. She even mentioned finding a big black cock to fuck in front of me. That gave me a huge jolt.

I think Mistress Sarah would look incredible with a black man -- the contrast between skin tones and forcing me, as her willing slave, to obey and listen and watch or even leave...whatever Mistress wants, I want Mistress to have.

I want Mistress to go further. I want to hear her sneer at me and order me to do things. I like feeling a bit of fear when I'm with my Mistress.

She's incredibly loving. But love can take many forms. Allowing me to grow into the slave that I can become, living  up to my potential as a slave, is one way for Mistress to show her love.

One day I would like Mistress to take me to subspace and force me to give oral sex to a man, maybe one of her lovers, with her pulling my hair, forcing me to do this, talking to me, ordering me, calling me a slut and a whore, HER slut, HER whore.

After she has pimped me out in this way, the man could throw a $20 bill at me and walk out, because that would reinforce the fantasy of being Mistress's whore. Then she could fuck my face, order me not to come, then have me do chores for her.

I am Mistress's slut.

Zack